First and last post of 2018

Where the heck did 2018 go?

Hmm, so last few hours of the year, you say?

Actually, not much happened to me in 2018. Still, it was a pretty great year for me. I feel like I achieved somewhat of a financial stability and I got more confident and stronger thanks to my job. I did have some depressive episodes, there were times when I was feeling down and I still have no social life, but 2018 was a good year in overall.
As for drawing, I really don't know. I am now certain that commissions were the only things that kept me going, as soon as I saw no interest and closed them, I completely stopped drawing. As I grow older, it just makes me feel ashamed. I still draw like a teenager and I'm over 30 already. I don't think I should keep forcing it since I'll never be half as good as I'd wanted to be. I've been on deviantART practicing and doing art as a hobby since freaking 2006. I saw improvement memes and they make me cry. :I
I'm not saying I shall never draw again because I'm a fickle person and will do it anyway if I feel like drawing again. In fact, I may start posting some older art on this blog or DA that fell victim to tumblr's "NO NSFW" rule.

Idk what to do with this blog. I may start using it again in 2019. Let's see.

Anyway, since my last post was a sims post in 2017, I'll post some sims again on the last day of this year. :B

One of my fav sims in The Sims 2 recently died so
RIP Claudia 01.11.2015-12.29.2018
(She lived for 77 sim days but almost 4 years in real time because I've been playing the game on and off with long breaks and I have shitloads of sims/families. Haha.)



Saying goodbye to The Sims 3

To save up some space on my HDD, I decided to get rid of The Sims 3. I haven't really played it in over 3 years after all...

I'd like to say a few words about the game before I delete it, though.
The open neighbourhood was a great new feature compared to the older games, but I think it had its drawbacks too. My game was only a "beta" game with only 1 neighbourhood (Sunset Valley) and no expansion packs, so this might have been the cause but if I played the same game for too long, all the cool premade families died out (often without a "heir") and got replaced by dumb computer-generated randomized sims who always had "male voice 1" and "female voice 1". Literally everybody sounded the same after playing for a while plus they were super random sims. They often seemed to reproduce by mitosis since single sims had babies more often than couples left alone. I once moved in a single woman for my male sim to meet with and possibly marry and then she had a baby within 24 sim hours after I moved her in the neighbourhood. :| Tbh I didn't really wanna start my sim's married life by having to raise a goddamn clone baby... Also, I once played with a family for quite a long time. When the 4th generation grew up, I continued the game with the younger girl (out of 3 siblings). The rest of the family ended up quitting their jobs, breaking up with their spouses, etc. The kids they had all had the same hairstyles and voices.
In the end I was like "NAH, GIMME BACK THE SIMS 2 where I can control the entire neighbourhood!"

These were the drawbacks. I liked the new personality trait selection thingy where you could pick from a much wider variety of traits than before for your sims. Though some of them really don't do much. The moodlets were fun too. The texture selection was an amazing thing too. You could buy anything in any colour and/or texture, it certainly gave a unique feel to the outfits and household objects. Certain challenges like making Ambrosia were really fun for avid players like me. The toddler life stage was too long in The Sims 3, though. Raising toddlers and having to tend to their needs is a time-consuming task for your sims, 4 days were enough for that in The Sims 2.
The graphics are definitely a lot nicer than in The Sims 2, but you don't get to appreciate your sims' beauty or their unique accessories because you play zoomed out most of the time (at least I did) because of the open neighbourhood.

So yeah, maybe I'm just getting old, but I didn't like this game as much as its predecessors.
Anyway, let me post a few screenshots here of my favourite families:

His first child and it's a girl! It's really hard getting a girl as your first child in The Sims 3 for some reason.

Same family. Daddy playing videogames with daughter and her friend watching.

The siblings I mentioned. I really liked this family while I was controlling them all. Then I chose the younger girl (in red) when she got married.

She was a scientist and knowledge-loving sim. I had her master gardening and fishing and had her make Ambrosia. She also had several children with her family-loving husband. I'd wanted to continue the game by keeping her young, breaking up with her old husband, moving her out and starting her life anew, but I kinda liked her only daughter as well, so I never did it in the end. I started new games instead.

So these were my adventures with The Sims 3. I shall continue Dragon Age once I get a new computer or new graphics card. I may try The Sims 4 as well, but I'm afraid I'm not all that interested in Sims games anymore.


Animu list

Okay so my graphics card died and I'm using this opportunity to do a big PC cleaning and reorganize/delete all the shit I saved and downloaded in the past 9+ years. I'm writing a list here of the anime I currently have on my external HDD. The ones I definitely want to keep are bolded, undecided ones are italic and the ones that must go are in strikethrough.
  1. 07-Ghost
  2. Ao no Exorcist
  3. Bakuman
  4. Claymore
  5. Code Geass
  6. Code Geass R2
  7. Dantalian no Shoka
  8. Deadman Wonderland
  9. Dogs OVA
  10. Durarara
  11. Eden of the East (series + movie sequels)
  12. FMA Brotherhood
  13. Gosick
  14. Hakuouki (trash but looks good and maybe I can use it for art reference)
  15. Kuragehime
  16. Kuroshitsuji (trash but looks good and maybe I can use it for art reference)
  17. Kuroshitsuji 2 (trash but looks good and maybe I can use it for art reference)
  18. Magi
  19. Magi season 2
  20. No.6
  21. Otome Yokai Zakuro
  22. Pandora Hearts
  23. Puella Magi Madoka Magica
  24. Rainbow
  25. School Days
  26. Seikimatsu Occult Gakuin (trash that I still liked for some odd reason)
  27. Shiki
  28. Supernatural
  29. Tales of the Abyss
  30. Tiger and Bunny
  31. Togainu no Chi
  32. Toradora
  33. Umineko no Naku Koro Ni
  34. Usagi Drop
  • Gintama Benizakura movie
  • Black Rock Shooter OVA
  • Spice and Wolf II OVA that I downloaded but couldn't make the file work 
 Oh well, there's actually a lot that I'd like to keep. I guess I'll have to delete the undecided ones then... Some of the bolded ones are bound to change too. All this anime is about 200 GB of disk space, so I could free up a lot of space if I deleted just half of these.


Sometimes I just want to lie down and die

Writing this very personal post here because nobody reads this blog but I need to vent somewhere.



*wipes cobwebs away*

Okay so I haven't written a new blog entry for almost a year. It's because 1) I don't draw much 2) I no longer have time to ramble here 3) it feels like talking to a wall 4) I sort of moved to twitter with my doodles and wips. :B


Where did 2015 go?!

Seriously, 2015 just started and it ended so fast. I didn't post much here this year. I kinda lost interest in this blog because I lost interest in drawing and "fangirling" in general by the end of the year. Still, I'd like to continue drawing in 2016. I haven't sent a message to my commissioners about canceling commissions yet because I'd still like to try in these 4 free days I currently have until Monday.

I didn't draw enough in 2015 because I kinda got back to playing AND watching random dumb games. Getting a smartphone for my birthday didn't help because I got into playing smartphone games too. I even considered buying Final Fantasy III for my phone, but I thought it was too expensive. I also have a full time job now, so I spend my weekdays working, then going to tumblr and/or twitter and playing games for a short while. I usually don't have the inspiration and energy to work on drawings...
Anyway, let's post some things I've been working on:

Wow, it didn't turn grey! 8D Apparently, I only posted this one on twitter. It's a quick scribble I did of waka!Sin before going to sleep, maybe. This one is back from summer, but I haven't updated this blog since then... (I won't be posting the ones I have finished and posted on tumblr or deviantART.)

David and Sinbad. I'm still into Magi. I'm also very excited about the whole Sinbad-David deal, though I have a bad feeling that Magi will end in a disappointing way. I have many ideas with these two, including a dumb parody of a famous painting.

Reigisa scribble I did for a friend's birthday. Unfortunately, I had no motivation and time to finish it on time.

Sinbad again. This is part of a larger concept sketch I probably won't finish.

Random girl I doodled in a few seconds, probably. She's not naked, I was just too lazy to draw her clothes.

Another random girl.

I have no explanation for this, but I kinda like how it turned out.
I just doodled a really rough sketch on "Pocky Day" (11.11.) before going to work, but I didn't decide on the characters at the time and they were basically 2 awkward scribbly potatoes done in 2 minutes or less. Then came the idea to do SinSeren later but Pocky Day was no longer actual, so no pocky for them. Maybe I should post this on tumblr...

Okay, that's it for the end of the year. I hope I can continue drawing and doing commissions in 2016. I'd really like to improve and make more money with commissions. That's my new years' resolution, haha. Happy New Year!!


Worst storm I've ever seen

I don't write about personal things a lot because nothing interesting happens to me. But yesterday we had a terrible storm where I live and I just have to write about it a little.
Putting it under a read more because of reasons.