Oh yeah, 2 days ago, at about 6:30 pm, I felt really sick. Jesus Christ, I felt terrible. I suddenly had a very intense pain in my stomach, I felt dizzy and I was shivering. I tried to lie down, but after a short while, I had to run to the toilet and ended up throwing up twice. I have no clue wtf was wrong with me, I didn't even eat anything I don't usually eat and I never eat too much. I thought I might end up becoming ill because I usually puke only while/before being ill, but fortunately, I feel alright now.
Also, sometimes I wonder why am I even doing all this? Why do I draw? Who do I dive into the fandom every day? I think I'm the worst kind of female otaku. That creepy "forever alone" kind. Borderline hikikomori. SO FRIGGING PATHETIC UGGGHHH. I want some kind of... real motivation and goals! I want challenge. The thrill of overcoming trials and... SUCCESS. Being somewhat popular with my fanarts is not really success, it's children's play. I should think of life as a videogame. Yeah. Try to play, become better and better at it and achieve things. I've always been good at games. If I think of life as a game, it should be easier to face my fears and problems too. XD; I'm not making sense, am I? Haha.
Anyway, here are a few things I've been working on:
Just slapped some base colours on this recently, cuz people seemed to really like this sketch of mine. I also redid the lines attempting to fix some anatomy errors and it's still sketchy... I also posted this on my Tumblr.
Another Vince/Gil pic. This is a really quick sketch I did in February. The whole pic is bigger, but I can't get Vincent's pose right. :B
Steps of my semi-realistic Jack portrait. This one sucks, lol. I like the Glen and Vincent ones much better. Why are you so draw, you bastard?! FFFUUUUU. I think I spend literally hours on just trying to get his face right. And it still looks like shit. If you flip the pic upside down, he looks awesome, though. 8D;;; I hate his face so much I even considered redoing the whole thing from scratch, but then I realized I probably couldn't make it better. *le sigh* And why do I even bother to do a base sketch... ? XD; These always look TERRIBLE when I do a quick base sketch for them. But I like lineless painting because I don't have to stick to a lineart. I'm not bound by black lines, I can just spread colours and shape them how it seems good to me.
And I drew this today in the morning. It's Lotti as her chain, Leon. XD I think she'd be quite similar to Cheshire in a way. Actually, I kinda like how this sketch turned out. I wanted to do quick lines + colours too in one sitting, but then my aunt wanted me to look up something online, so I had to stop working on it. This somehow always happens when I feel like drawing something, haha. 8D;
I've been working on my 150k kiriban pic too, but I don't wanna post another wip of that, cuz I just noticed another error on it, waaa...
Okay, that's it for now. Listen to some Two Steps from Hell music:
