Winter in March

We had snowstorms where I live last weekend. O___o It started snowing on the afternoon of March 14 and then it kept snowing for almost an entire day. The snow didn't melt right away and it was still cold and windy even today. A snowy March 15 like this has never happened in my life before and I heard the last one before this happened when my mother was still a kid. Nature is not fooled, though. The blackbirds sing in the morning and evening and small leaves and flowers began growing everywhere.

 It looked like this.
My mother says if you washed your face in March snow, you'd be beautiful, haha~

Anyway, Pandora Hearts Retrace 82 came out yesterday. It's 65 pages. It's beautiful. This series never ceases to amaze me. It's so cute, emotional, exciting and bloody dark and tragic at the same time. I love Oscar so damn much. I've loved him from the beginning, but at first I didn't expect Jun would give him any special attention or character development or anything. I thought he'd only be this random funny uncle, who won't have much purpose in the story other than being a minor comic relief character. Well, I was wrong. Oscar is a great character like everyone else.

I did so many super fast PH scribbles in the past 1-2 days. @___@

Oh, and I'm also refining/colouring this thing from my previous entry:

VERY SLOWLY because I had commissions and other more important things to draw in the meantime. But I'm having so much fun with this lame sketch. XD

The story of this sketch:
hand: SINBAD PLZ.
brain: NO. COMMISSIONS.
hand: NO. SINBAD.
brain: NO. PANDORA HEARTS.
hand: I WANT MY SINBAD.
brain: I ORDER YOU TO WORK, HAND.
hand: ONLY IF I CAN DRAW SINBAD FIRST.
brain: ... OK.

I think I'm crazy... Anyway, I'd better go to sleep now. I'll work on my Pandora Hearts sketches tomorrow.

Goodbye peaceful NEET life!

I'm starting work next MONDAY!! I'm excited and worried at the same time. But that other girl who's gonna be my colleague is very kind and she's older and more experienced, so I hope she'll be able to help me. I wanna be friends with her. I'm very inexperienced and naive but I learn fast. No matter what, I'm gonna do my best! I won't earn a lot of money, but it's better than nothing. HECK, I'LL EARN MONEY!! Even if it isn't much, it will be my own money I earn with my own work! Yes! Finally!
And I have a shiny new bank account! (I had no bank account in the past few years.) I think that as soon as I get my cards, the first thing I'll try to do is buying a premium membership on deviantART. Just to see how it works. And I'm gonna buy a new cellphone when I get my first payment. I dislike cellphones and rarely use them, but this modern world requires you to own one. They ask for your mobile number EVERYWHERE! D:

So I wrote that first paragraph yesterday. Today I got in a lethargic mood for no reason after coming home from the doctor. And I'd really need to draw something this weekend. OTL I actually have a drawing I should do for a group activity before the 1st of July. It's not that I haven't been drawing, just nothing turns out well. Here are some sketches I did in June:

I love it when Jack or Vincent does this "shhh" pose, lol~ Very fast sketch.

Ozu. This sucks. It was a bad idea to attempt drawing this pose.

Gil and Vincent. I drew this when I was feeling shitty.

No, this is not a rape scene, I just felt like drawing angry yelling people.

This idea has been sitting in my head since retrace 69 (January). I drew a basic sketch back then, but it was horrible, so I redid it recently inspired by this RP. This new sketch is much better, but still could use a lot of work and refining.

And I did this last Saturday when I finally felt like drawing again after a tiring week. I wish I'd have the patience to work on it some more, but I haven't touched it since then.

Okay, so I haven't been able to complete anything lately and I'm afraid work's gonna kill off all that little hint of inspiration that I have left. But I'll try. Maybe drawing would help me relax after work... Though to tell the truth, drawing is not relaxing for me at all because I tend to stress over everything. This pose is odd, this arm is too long, this facial expression is not right, etc. etc.

Oh well... I can't promise anything, but I'll try to draw something with Lotti for now~

Rampant spoiler sketches from PH 65+

Wow! I think it's the first time I actually managed to finish/colour everything from a previous post. Yay~

Anyway, I got so inspired by retrace 73, I finally decided to draw a bunch of sketches of Gil, Oswald and Jack... They are under the cut because of the spoiler content.

Hands and PH

If anyone is reading this, then hi! 8D I've been trying to draw but I haven't managed to produce too many decent things lately. A few scribbles I did:

I decided to practice drawing hands a bit. My left hand was the model.

Lolz, this is a really bad doodle I did of Zwei one night. It doesn't even resemble Zwei because I was too lazy to use a ref. I managed to make her look crazy enough, though. XD;

I logged in to Tumblr on March 29 I and the first frigging thing I saw on my dash was THIS. With Caucus Race 2, one of my secret fangirly dreams of Gil hugging Vincent came true and I just had to quickly scribble something to commemorate this beautiful event. 8;D It's a really fast sketch, but I kinda like it. I might clean it up a bit and post on Tumblr later.

Vinceeent~ This was inspired by a Tiger&Bunny fanart of Lunatic/Yuri from Pixiv. I kept thinking this pose was hot and hard to draw because of the perspective of the arms and I wanted to draw a male character in a similar pose, but didn't know which character. Then I realized Vincent had long hair and he actually has it tied back recently...

LMAO. Jack as Jack and Lacie as Rose from the famous movie, Titanic. I was working on this today. I had this idea some time ago and even did a really quick doodle in the middle of March, but only started seriously working on it today. I can't believe I've never seen this parody/crossover done before. XD; April 10 is gonna be the 100 year anniversary of the day when the Titanic embarked on its first and last journey and April 14-15 is when the tragedy happened. Great occasion for a fanart like this... ?

There are many things I messed up on this pic, but I'm going to finish it anyway.

I started putting my username on some pics, because sometimes people steal things even from this blog and then edit them without permission and then I "meet" them again in someone else's DA gallery. -___- Okay. I wanted to rant about some things, but it's getting pretty late and I don't wanna spend an hour typing shit now, so maybe I'll do it some other time~~

Small rant and some PH drawings

So today I finally ate some of the Milka chocolate rabbit I got for Easter from my aunt last year. Its "best before" date was August 31, 2011. But it still tastes good even if it spent almost a whole year sitting on my table untouched, ahaha... After not eating anything at all for a day, I felt like eating some chocolate.
Oh yeah, 2 days ago, at about 6:30 pm, I felt really sick. Jesus Christ, I felt terrible. I suddenly had a very intense pain in my stomach, I felt dizzy and I was shivering. I tried to lie down, but after a short while, I had to run to the toilet and ended up throwing up twice. I have no clue wtf was wrong with me, I didn't even eat anything I don't usually eat and I never eat too much. I thought I might end up becoming ill because I usually puke only while/before being ill, but fortunately, I feel alright now.

Also, sometimes I wonder why am I even doing all this? Why do I draw? Who do I dive into the fandom every day? I think I'm the worst kind of female otaku. That creepy "forever alone" kind. Borderline hikikomori. SO FRIGGING PATHETIC UGGGHHH. I want some kind of... real motivation and goals! I want challenge. The thrill of overcoming trials and... SUCCESS. Being somewhat popular with my fanarts is not really success, it's children's play. I should think of life as a videogame. Yeah. Try to play, become better and better at it and achieve things. I've always been good at games. If I think of life as a game, it should be easier to face my fears and problems too. XD; I'm not making sense, am I? Haha.

Anyway, here are a few things I've been working on:

Just slapped some base colours on this recently, cuz people seemed to really like this sketch of mine. I also redid the lines attempting to fix some anatomy errors and it's still sketchy... I also posted this on my Tumblr.

Another Vince/Gil pic. This is a really quick sketch I did in February. The whole pic is bigger, but I can't get Vincent's pose right. :B

Steps of my semi-realistic Jack portrait. This one sucks, lol. I like the Glen and Vincent ones much better. Why are you so draw, you bastard?! FFFUUUUU. I think I spend literally hours on just trying to get his face right. And it still looks like shit. If you flip the pic upside down, he looks awesome, though. 8D;;; I hate his face so much I even considered redoing the whole thing from scratch, but then I realized I probably couldn't make it better. *le sigh* And why do I even bother to do a base sketch... ? XD; These always look TERRIBLE when I do a quick base sketch for them. But I like lineless painting because I don't have to stick to a lineart. I'm not bound by black lines, I can just spread colours and shape them how it seems good to me.

And I drew this today in the morning. It's Lotti as her chain, Leon. XD I think she'd be quite similar to Cheshire in a way. Actually, I kinda like how this sketch turned out. I wanted to do quick lines + colours too in one sitting, but then my aunt wanted me to look up something online, so I had to stop working on it. This somehow always happens when I feel like drawing something, haha. 8D;

I've been working on my 150k kiriban pic too, but I don't wanna post another wip of that, cuz I just noticed another error on it, waaa...

Okay, that's it for now. Listen to some Two Steps from Hell music:

This day happens once in every 4 years

Yeah. I'm so creative with blog entry titles. Also, stupid weather. Now it's all sunny and spring-like again and all the snow that kept falling non-stop yesterday melted last night when the snow turned into rain.

First of all, Kasia, if you are reading this (I know you're stalking my blog lol), I wanna let you know that our Lotti/Gil drawing inspired some cool smutty roleplays on Tumblr. 8)))

Drawings.

Unfinished version of this. I think it looks SO MUCH BETTER with the textures.

Looong overdue request of someone's characters. This is the 4th version and I'm finally uploading a wip, cuz I think I'll go with this version. I hate how the guy looks here, though. OTL

Very fast sketch of my cute little girl character, Amarevia. This name almost became my own second name through the years I spent using it doing stuff online, but it originally belonged to this character. I have to admit, now I think she's a little bit like Alice from PH, lol.

Sketch versus lineart. The pic really does change a lot in the process, doesn't it? 8D

Aaand here's something I started sketching today. Can you guess who this is? 8)

My rants about Pandora Hearts Retrace 70.
Click "Read more" to read them!

Happy New Year!

This blog is almost one year old now. Woo~ I like posting stuff here. It's like an archive for myself and it's fun to look back at all the shit I've posted by now. XD;

As first thing to do on the first day of this new year, I joined Tumblr. *le gasp* Within like 5 minutes, someone already started following me. O___o; Whoa!

JESUS CHRIST I posted an older doodle of Break just to post something to see how it looks like and people already started liking and reblogging it. That site scares me. D:

Drawingz.

Jack. Tried to to a super quick not-very-accurate copy of him from the cover of volume 7.

A very different version of Jack. I cropped this, he's holding something on the full version~

"Damn, there's a fly in my drink..." XD
Apparently, when you become the next head of the Baskervilles, you have to drink not only from the chains' but your predecessor's blood as well.

Random sleeping Vincent. I haven't drawn every detail on his outfit. I think sleeping people are hard to draw. But Vincent is a character who tends to randomly fall asleep at times because of his Dormouse chain and I'm obsessed with drawing him. He originally wasn't supposed to have legs on this drawing, so sorry if it's totally off. >___<;;;

This one might be familiar from my previous post. I originally didn't intend to do a lineart for this, but then I somehow stumbled upon this fanfic (I hardly ever read fanfics, actually. But this one is way better than the average.) and it inspired me to continue working on it. 8D I have no clue why I drew that fancy underwear thing (or whatever it is) I drew on Ada, but it was fun to draw. Ada is like a Barbie doll, so girly and disgustingly cute. And Vincent is wearing a regular white shirt here instead of his frilly nightgown-like one. This pairing needs more fanart (the newest drama CD is all about them, tee-hee~) and this fandom needs more het pairing art in general.

Other stuff.

I found my old My Little Pony toys when we were cleaning before Xmas. I have/had more, but only these two are original Hasbro ponies. The baby one was manufactured in 1984 (yeah, a few years older than me, lol) and the big one is from 1992. They still look like they are new and the big one has all of her accessories. Do you think I should try selling them online? Hehe. 8D

This is my mom's cactus. It blooms in December-January. Isn't it pretty? I like how this photo turned out.

I wanted to rant about anime/manga stuff, but this post is already pretty long. I should post more often. XD; I watched Inception yesterday and liked it, but I think I should watch it again at least one more time.

Anyway, I hope I'll continue posting lots of things here in 2012~~

PH insanity and some OCs

Long time no post again, ugh... I've been drawing. Slowly and not that much. Let's see some sketches...

XD This is a "parody" of my own drawing of Glen, lolz. The original is in my deviantART gallery. I started this as a quick random scribble and when I posted it on DA, I somehow got lucky and it ended up in the most popular pics in the 8 hours interval, it had over 400 faves in a week. O___O

Jack and Glen. I drew this because of Kasia's comment on my previous Glen drawing. She said she wanted to do this to Glen. XD It's super quick (I drew it in about 1-2 minutes, I guess) and crappy, but I wanted to upload it here anyway, hehe.

Grumpy Alice is grumpy (or tsundere?). This is part of a bigger pic I plan on finishing soon. I still don't really like how her face turned out here. D:

Jack based on a panel from chapter 67. I just loved his expressions in this chapter so much I had to draw him. Maybe I'm finally starting to learn how to draw him. I really want to do a picture of him later, he's so cute. 8D

I revamped an old OC. It's a bit disappointing how little my style changed in 6 years, isn't it? D: I mean I've always been relatively good at drawing. Other people improve more in just half a year or so... OTL

This is a quick sketch of MauAcheron-the-crazy's character, Olivia. I don't like how her face came out and she looks too girly in my style. DX I drew her because she's one of the 3 characters I have to draw for a kiriban prize art. I've done 2 sketches for that pic already, but I just couldn't get them right for some reason. I feel guilty for not completing this request yet, because I've been sitting on that pic for about 2 months now... OTL

OH MY GOD!! Can you believe I drew VincentxAda smut?! Early in the morning I get fanart ideas like this. What the hell is wrong with me? -___- Vincent probably told her he'd show her some awesome magic spell which involves getting her undressed. 8DDD *shot* Uncle Oscaaaarrrr, your precious niece is about to get tainted!! D: I like this pairing even if Vincent is a "brother-obsessed creeper who buries his desires into vulnerable women". 8) And I actually like how this sketch came out, but I don't intend finishing it.

Woo~ That was a lot of... stuff. Pandora Hearts ate my brain a while ago, so most of it was PH again. I've been listening to a lot of Akiko Shikata songs while drawing lately. I'm also into Yuki Kajiura music again. Many of her songs remind me of winter, maybe because I watched PH in December 2 years ago, lol.

Anyway, here's a song by her I discovered just recently:

American edition of Fiction, WHY U NO HAVE THIS AWESOME TRACK?! FFFFUUUU

Some PH 65 sketches

According to the weather forecast, today might have been the last day of this elongated summer. So the weather has been wonderful and everything should be great, but I'm feeling kind of crappy for no particular reason. I just don't feel like drawing things. I decide I will draw in the morning, and then waste my time in many ways all day and end up not even touching my tablet by the end of the day.
I've been watching a lot of anime and reading a lot of manga lately (I read like 15 volumes during last weekend and Monday). I know I should be doing better things, but my head gets filled of dark unnecessary thoughts otherwise. I wrote a few things about my impressions of the series I watched, but I don't wanna post it here now.
Have some shitty sketches instead, WARNING: PH SPOILERS!

Gil. I put this on my Pandora Hearts meme, but I actually drew this sketch separately. I attempted to draw many things inspired by chapter 65, but they sucked.

Proof that I still fail at drawing Jack. WhyareyousohardtodrawJack OTL

Glen + bitty Gil. Actually, I kinda like this one, though Gil didn't turn out small enough, lol. And it's anime!Glen. XD His outfit looks a bit different in the manga, but I like how they added those swirly pattern things on it in the anime artbook concepts. I might change it if I finish this, but I still like this design better. XD;

Aaand, not my drawing, but I collected a few scenes from the PH manga where Vincent uses his left hand to convince people who claim he's right-handed, cuz the anime illustrators screwed up on one pic. (Btw, Mochizuki herself screwed it up at one scene, when Gil takes the gun from Vincent in chapter 59, it's like - Vince aims with his left, then Gil grabs his RIGHT, then it's left again on the next panel. And I think Mochizuki must be right-handed, cuz she prefers to draw characters facing left, lolz.)

For the sake of diversity: more PH sketches...

So, I managed to finish my big Pandora Hearts group pic last weekend. Now I have a commission to do. But I still made some more small doodles.

I slapped some colours on this older doodle of Break. XD

Very quick sketch of Jack. I suck at drawing him... OTL

VincentXGilbert. Inspired by a doujinshi titled "Sadism". Ahahaha... 8D;;;;;

Elliot. I wanted to draw some cute happy sketch of him. I have a commission to do with him and Gil and I haven't drawn Elliot that many times yet. His hair is a bit tricky to draw. I may put this up on DA after some refining.

Anyway, nothing worthy to mention has been happening to me. I don't even watch anime or read manga right now aside from the ongoing series I follow. As for music inspiration, I got into Deep Forest a while ago. I love listening to this kind of music while I draw. And this song always cheers me up:

More Pandora Hearts doodles

I'm so obsessed with Pandora Hearts it's not even funny. D: I'm currently trying to fix that goddamn picture of Alice, Oz and Gil, it's taking me freaking forever. I'll probably just get sick of it and finish quickly. Anyway, I did some other doodles too.

Vincent. >___<

Team Baskerville vs Team Vessalius. *shot* I started sketching this yesterday when I was listening to songs from Fiction II on YouTube. I think MochiJun loves dark/blond pairs as much as I do. :B I guess browsing all the cool art on Pixiv makes me want to do more complex pics and improve... I mean when did I do a composition like this before? Oz and Jack look weird here, they are hard for me to draw.

100% size close-up of Vincent from that sketch. It's HUGE. If I finish this, it will eat up all of my system memory, lol. It's just a quick sketch and it's already like 11 MB...

Not much for now. I should draw something for a contest and also something for Royai day...

So cute! The goldfinches and greenfinches still come here to my window and they are here until about 20:20. Call me insane, but I think there is something magical in this. My computer is next to the window and the weather got hot, so my window is open. And birds who normally don't go near humans are eating there, so close where I could reach out and touch them if they weren't scared of me. There's only a semi-transparent curtain between us.

I saw something about Yuki Kajiura's new Fiction II album on Jun Mochizuki's blog a while ago, but for some reason, I wasn't very interested in this album. I thought it had mostly just new versions of anime songs I already know and have and assumed the original songs would be way too corny even for me. However, I still listened to some songs of it yesterday and today and oh wow, it's beautiful! :O It really is corny, but I ended up loving most of the new original songs and even some of the recycled anime songs are better than the originals. This woman's music is magic.