Magi scribbles and The Sims 2 8D

Happy New Year! 8D I know it's super late, but this is my first post in 2015, haha.

I still haven't managed to draw much since last time. I got inspired once and managed to draw a sketch every day for 4-5 days in a row, but then I gave up and started watching anime and play The Sims 2 instead. The recent Levi drawing I posted on tumblr is from that random inspired time.

I did several practice doodles of Ja'far when I wanted to draw him for a friend's birthday in the beginning of February. Ja'far is her favourite from Magi and I dislike Nanatsu no Taizai, so Ja'far was the obvious choice for me, lol. Maybe I should have finished this one instead of the one I ended up finishing, but I didn't like how his face turned out here.

This is an OC doodle that somehow happened. I created this character many years ago after waking up from a movie-like dream. My OCs always change a lot in my head and I keep changing even basic stuff like their names, but I guess "Darshana" finally got stuck as this girl's name.

This is her old outfit which I don't really like anymore. :/ She had straight hair on my first designs of her because it took me forever to learn how to draw this wavy "flowy" hair. I wanted to make her feminine in appearance but masculine in personality. I often try to imagine her actions and interactions with other characters while imagining how an outgoing charismatic and overconfident male character would act. And I like it. XD I just had to create a male attendant for her who balances her out a little, he becomes nervous, embarrassed or worries in her place and makes her stop when she goes overboard. I'll draw him too one day.

Obligatory Sinbad scribbles, duh. I'm still so addicted to drawing him, I hate him so much ugh...

Really quick doodle I did after one of the recent Sinbad no Bouken chapters. OMG my baby is growing facial hair already?! XDD He's growing up so fast, jeez.

Aaand this is not my art. It's a birthday present I finally got recently. My favourite PH boys wishing me a happy birthday, yay~ <3 I'm posting it here because having it here may be safer than having it on my PC or my external HDD. (I apparently lost two or three months worth of old photos thanks to my external HDD - some of them were important personal memories.)

Okay, I guess that's all the unfinished stuff I wanted to post for now. (I have some more messy scribbles, but they are too shitty to post even here.) I'd like to finish at least one of my old Sinbad drawings this weekend. I'll pray to the animu gods to give me patience and inspiration, haha.

One of the many times the Reaper came

Oh yeah, and I wanted to write about a funny story that happened in my The Sims 2 game (I shouldn't have downloaded it last year when EA made it downloadable for free. X'D).
One of my favourite sims refuses to die. XD
He's a guy with romance aspiration and pleasure secondary aspiration. I created him as a university student sometime last year. He's now an elder who reached the end of his life (he lived a great happy life fulfilling his lifetime wants twice - reaching the top of the Athletics career and WooHooing with 20 sims), but when the Grim Reaper comes at 6 pm, he throws himself on his knees and begs for his life. Then the Grim Reaper offers to play a guessing game and my sim always wins. XDD If he keeps this up, he's gonna live forever, lol.

Wife crying on the right, but he won

Eventually, he managed to outlive his wife who was actually a couple of days younger than him (she died normally like every other sim). I also realized this is probably not a glitch. I saved the game before 6 pm and kept reloading a few times and one time my sim ended up choosing the Reaper's wrong hand during the game and died. But I didn't save the game when that happened, so he's still alive and keeps messing with the Grim Reaper every day, hahaha. After losing the game, the Reaper leaves and my sim doesn't get a day older. 8D
Update:
I finally figured out why he didn't die! Back when he was still in college, he randomly got a magic lamp and one of the wishes he made was being able to trick the Grim Reaper. I didn't consider this possibility at first because I thought the effect of this wish would "wear off", but apparently it didn't. Anyway, after losing to the Grim Reaper twice in a row, I saved the game and let him go. He was a fun sim to play, may his 4 children prove to be just as fun. RIP. XD

Okay, I'll shut up now. I also wanna ramble about anime/manga and the latest PH chapter (I'd like to draw Aliceee and Ozzz), but I'll do that on deviantART eventually. Now I'll go and work on the drawings I want to finish. Bye for now~

May sketches

Yo! I've been feeling down about my art a lot lately. I just look at other ppl's sketches and it seems so easy... And then I get inspired and try to draw something too, but it doesn't turn out half as well as I imagined it and I need to realize how bad I am again and again. I will eventually give up, I guess. Although drawing is something I've loved doing ever since I was a small child, so I'm not sure I could just give up. But you know, the lack of improvement is a little depressing. My "art" is just terribly boring and static. Even after spending over seven years on deviantART, I still can't do more complicated poses, perspective and dynamic stuff. In fact, I often have to use a reference just to be able to start a drawing from somewhere. You know... for a certain pose, style or something. I'm trying. I go to posemaniacs and do the 30 sec drawing exercise and stuff. But it's like doing nothing at all. I'm pretty good at drawing those poses by relying on the refs, but as soon as I try just by myself, I get stuck after 2 lines and have no clue where the body should go or how long a limb should be from a certain view. I think I simply lack the ability to be able to envision these things correctly and it should be vital for an artist. TT___TT
A friend of mine told me some time ago that I should move on to drawing environments and backgrounds because I'm already good enough at drawing characters now, but I highly doubt I'm good enough for trying more complicated things. Though it's possible that studying and practicing perspective would help me with the character poses and angles too...

Ok, enough of my whining for now. Let's post some sketches I've done in this month so far. I'll start with the worst one and then go in chronological order~

This is a very fast sketch of Break and Vincent from Pandora Hearts. I kinda gave up working on it because I couldn't figure out how to draw their poses. I just can't get that prison scene that was in one of the recent chapters out of my head.

A super quick Alibaba from Magi. I love this boy. I keep forgetting that he's already 18 years old because he's just so moe and silly and adorable, haha~ I've been trying to force myself to draw quick simple things because it's still better than not drawing anything. And purple is good for shading.

And there's also this alcoholic idiot. Oh my gosh... I think I'm in love with him. XD;;; The thing he is hugging is supposed to be one of those big jugs. This sketch was actually inspired by a sketchdump I saw on pixiv. His leg probably shouldn't be where it is and the pose is probably all wrong, but I couldn't draw it better. :B

Shota Drakon. He has green hair, bitches! I've always thought human Drakon must have had dark green hair. I really love this kid too. I don't even know why, I guess I just liked his personality from what we could see of it in the Sinbad no Bouken prototype. I almost wish he'd have kept that attitude and remained human. Though I love how he looks so much like a dragon already, lol.

Evening doodle for yesterday: Esla with baby Sinbad. My anatomy skills are a catastrophe, I swear. I spent like 2 hours (maybe not two, but at least one for sure) trying to get the poses right. And it still looks weird as heck. Oh well...
Sin got his eyebrows from his mom, good. And the earrings. Otherwise he'd be a carbon copy of his father.
Also, why do anime/manga moms always get sick and die at a young age (or get eaten by a giant or something)? I'd seriously like to see a manga hero whose mom is alive and kicking asses.

Hey, these sketches are not that bad after all. I only wish I had a longer attention span. I'd like to ramble about more things, but I gotta now, so maybe later~ I'm sure I'll do some more sketches in May.

My song obsession for today:

Why hello there, Art Block!

I've been suffering with drawing lately. I don't even know how I manage to waste all that time doing nothing productive... But I decided I will complete one drawing before the next PH chapter comes out! I still have a whole day left! (Or maybe two, but the spoilers tend to come earlier.)

 

So yeah, I started sketching this in the beginning of May, but I'd like to finish this tomorrow. The Children of Misfortune. I wanted to draw their adult versions and Break as his younger Kevin self because... BECAUSE. I dislike Lacie's hair here, the shape is odd and Vincent looks odd too, but maybe it will be better when I shade it. :B

This was inspired by a doodle by Mochizuki I saw in the art book. I've never been particularly interested in this BreakxSharon pairing. I don't even know why because it's pretty much my DREAM COUPLE. I mean... rich young lady and her loyal knight - isn't that perfect? XD But somehow I kept thinking of them as protective big brother and spoiled little sister not related by blood. However, I was eventually convinced thanks to some PH extras that Sharon totally has a crush on Break. And Break likes to tease everyone~

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Whoops, I think I just turned bisketchual... Yes, I went there. I have no regrets, lalala~ This pic just spontaneously popped into my head today and I had to draw it right away. I wanted to ride that wonderful random wave of inspiration that doesn't come often. You know you're a rabid Vincent fangirl when you start shipping him with his brother despite hating yaoi. Gil does not want. 8|

Ok, that's all folks! I actually drew today, so I'm hoping I'd be able to get some shit done this week~~ Good night!

Rants about Pandora Hearts and Vincent

So...

 LET'S TALK ABOUT PANDORA HEARTS!!

8D

Hmm... I'm not sure I'd enjoy Pandora Hearts so much if it was all cuteness and fluff and funny things. I need the drama, blood and pain to really like a story. Pandora Hearts is so great because it has the cuteness but doesn't get too corny and also has a healthy amount of darkness. Compared to my other big manga obsession, Fullmetal Alchemist, PH is a lot less predictable and also darker, I think. I never spent as much time analyzing FMA as I do analyzing PH.

Random thoughts about Pandora Hearts (mostly Vincent) I wrote down but never posted anywhere

I just reread a few notes I made a long time ago while reading Pandora Hearts. Some of them were just about analyzing characters and their relationships, but there were many things I had predicted but kinda forgot about them. O___o Click "Read more" to view my ramblings. Warning: Mild spoilers!!

Snow

I'm such a kid. Yesterday, it snowed all day and it made me so happy. XDD The snowing continued until about noon today. I was watching it for a while early in the morning from my window and the snow was sparkling in the light of the street lamps, it was so pretty! I was about to give up on seeing more snow than just a few drops this winter, but  now we finally got some cold (VERY cold) and a decent amount of snow.

Drawings. KICK MEEE!! PLEASE?! I should draw more. I have a sketch which has the potential to be one of my best drawings if I finish it. I started doing the lineart yesterday and couldn't draw one character's face decently, kept erasing and redrawing, then eventually gave up. OTL (For now.)
I gave up on creating original things a while ago almost completely, but I'm not good enough even as a fanartist. I'm stalking a couple of artists on Tumblr and I'm always like "how can they draw so much? why is even their sketchy stuff so good? why can't I draw half as well as this person when I'm 5 years older and I have been doing digital art for 6 years and she's just a hobbyist like me?" Anyway, I've been trying to draw, but everything I do sucks.

First of all, while I was working on my Glen portrait, I noticed that the same file looked slightly different in Sai and Photoshop. The only thing I don't like in Sai is that the shades don't seem to blend as nicely as they do in PS. Different shades have this "edge" in Sai that I can't delete no matter what tool I use. When I open the same file in PS, it looks smoother.

Quick sketch of Leo. I stopped drawing/colouring this, cuz I didn't like how it was turning out. :\

Break. This one was inspired by a cosplay photo. I can't draw his hair.

This is COMPLETE UTTER SHIT. This is what happens when you try to draw something cool and dynamic and then you realize during the process that you cannot draw dynamic things to save your life and the result turns out looking like crap and 200% static lol. I'm just posting this to show you how bad my really quick sketches are. -___-;

Okay, here's a sample from the Pandora Hearts fanart calendar. We are seriously making a calendar (actually two calendars). In fact, I'm already done with the first 12 months. It's more difficult to do than it seems, but it's turning out better than I expected at first. I'm not sure when it will be done, because we still don't have a 2nd June pic, but I hope we can finish it before March... >___<;;;

I want to draw moaaar, I'll go now...

Oh, and some people take and edit even the sketches I post here on this blog without permission. Is it so hard to contact me and ask for my permission first? D: I may have to start watermarking even my doodles, lol.

Lots of doodles

I was too lazy to post more stuff in August. D: But I did do a bunch of doodles. Here are some quick sketches:

This is the very first WIP I did for a commissioned piece. I did 2 rough sketch layers for the characters, this is already the 3rd lineart layer. Actually, I think this is the first time I succeeded at drawing 3 sitting characters next to each other without using references. XD;

Little Vincent from Pandora Hearts. I dunno where this style came from, hahaha. Just wanted to upload this, cuz I think it's funny for some reason.

Quick sketch of Jizabel/Jezebel Disraeli from Hakushaku Cain + Godchild. I'd like to do some good fanart of him one day, he's my fave character from that series.

Just having fun with random expressions and faces and stuff. Random characters.

This is my OC, Alec's nameless older brother. I created him around 2005, but he wasn't a very important character, so I didn't really care about him. Lately, I decided to redesign him and now he's starting to look like a cliché villain, yay...

This one sucks, haha. It's supposed to be Break from Pandora Hearts. I once saw a fanart of an anime character tied to a bed like this and I've been wanting to draw something similar since then. XD I didn't draw his seal, cuz I was too lazy to look up references and it's just a doodle anyway. I wanted to put Sharon's shadow or something there, but it sucked. XD;

Xerxes Break again. Very fast sketch, that turned out relatively well.

Gil: *so drunk he can barely walk*
Vincent: Come on nii-san, I'll take you to your bedroom. <3
Lol. I found the translation of "Vincent's Gilbert observation diary" (an extra thingy from the manga guidebook) a while ago and the first entry started like this: "Gilbert drank a lot again tonight..." I had to draw something, ahaha. XDD Their arms are probably weird, but I kinda like this sketch anyway.

Ok, that was quite a lot. Maybe I should update this blog more often~

For the sake of diversity: more PH sketches...

So, I managed to finish my big Pandora Hearts group pic last weekend. Now I have a commission to do. But I still made some more small doodles.

I slapped some colours on this older doodle of Break. XD

Very quick sketch of Jack. I suck at drawing him... OTL

VincentXGilbert. Inspired by a doujinshi titled "Sadism". Ahahaha... 8D;;;;;

Elliot. I wanted to draw some cute happy sketch of him. I have a commission to do with him and Gil and I haven't drawn Elliot that many times yet. His hair is a bit tricky to draw. I may put this up on DA after some refining.

Anyway, nothing worthy to mention has been happening to me. I don't even watch anime or read manga right now aside from the ongoing series I follow. As for music inspiration, I got into Deep Forest a while ago. I love listening to this kind of music while I draw. And this song always cheers me up:

The birds have left

After the super hot weather, rain finally came on Monday evening. There was a HUGE storm at midnight and since Tuesday, it's been much colder. It rained all day today and yesterday too. And today was the first day in this year when the birds didn't come to my window at all aside from a few sparrows. They seem to have moved from our park since it became awfully quiet too. I actually got a little sad because I got so used to them. XD But they will probably come back in September.

Drawingz. 

 ZOMG a pencil sketch!! I drew this in last October, though. Just wanted to scan it to test some settings in Photoshop. Random OC guy.

I posted this to my DA journal, just thought I'd post it here too. Break. I wanted to draw him in his sexy rainbow-coloured swimsuit he's wearing in one of the specials. XD

This is one of a bunch of retarded doodles I did on Monday. Chibi Vincent with a severed head. Lovely.

I posted the sketch of this a while ago. Well, I got bored of it at this stage. I thought the sketch was pretty good, but I don't like this drawing any longer.

Part of my huge PH group pic. I worked a lot on this today. I still have to fix some things on the lineart, but as you can see I've already started colouring it. Also, I really love to draw roses. :O

Ok, that's all for now. I'd like to draw something quick now~~ 8D

Some more Vincent + Break + Crap

Hello to everyone who's reading this~ I've done some bad sketches lately. Let me show you some.

PANDORA HEARTS

This is supposed to be Vincent, but I can't draw him from side view, lolz... I still need to use more refs of him... OTL

VincentxAda. I'm actually proud of this, because it's completely un-referenced, yet it turned out to be somewhat decent~~ I want to complete this.

This is a super quick one of Break.

OTHER

This is very ugly, because it's a semi-realistic painting I got bored of after working on it for an hour or so. The face wasn't turning out how I wanted it to, so I abandoned this sketch.

Quick pose practice. This was referenced from a photo.

Ok, that's all for now.
Btw, I just found out yesterday that my elementary school class had a class reunion in May. I was invited too, but I didn't log in that Hungarian online community site for months and I totally missed it. I felt so depressed because of this. I probably wouldn't have gone anyway, but still...

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 I don't care what happens today, I'm going to finish this even if the sky falls down!! DX It's taking me so long because I'm shading everything. I like how Sharon's dress came out.

And I doodled this in Sai yesterday in about 20-30 minutes before taking a bath and waiting to have enough water, lol. Sorry if the colours make your eyes bleed.