Wow! I think it's the first time I actually managed to finish/colour everything from a previous post. Yay~
Anyway, I got so inspired by retrace 73, I finally decided to draw a bunch of sketches of Gil, Oswald and Jack... They are under the cut because of the spoiler content.
I wanted to finish a drawing today. I was working on it in the morning, then I took a break. Then, Mom was like "Let's go to the cemetery"!
FFFUUUUU. Why does this always happen? ALWAYS when I actually feel like drawing. WHYYY...? TT___TT
I've been suffering with drawing lately. I don't even know how I manage to waste all that time doing nothing productive... But I decided I will complete one drawing before the next PH chapter comes out! I still have a whole day left! (Or maybe two, but the spoilers tend to come earlier.)
So yeah, I started sketching this in the beginning of May, but I'd like to finish this tomorrow. The Children of Misfortune. I wanted to draw their adult versions and Break as his younger Kevin self because... BECAUSE. I dislike Lacie's hair here, the shape is odd and Vincent looks odd too, but maybe it will be better when I shade it. :B
This was inspired by a doodle by Mochizuki I saw in the art book. I've never been particularly interested in this BreakxSharon pairing. I don't even know why because it's pretty much my DREAM COUPLE. I mean... rich young lady and her loyal knight - isn't that perfect? XD But somehow I kept thinking of them as protective big brother and spoiled little sister not related by blood. However, I was eventually convinced thanks to some PH extras that Sharon totally has a crush on Break. And Break likes to tease everyone~
DJAKSJDANSDAHAEZFGEZ Whoops, I think I just turned bisketchual... Yes, I went there. I have no regrets, lalala~ This pic just spontaneously popped into my head today and I had to draw it right away. I wanted to ride that wonderful random wave of inspiration that doesn't come often. You know you're a rabid Vincent fangirl when you start shipping him with his brother despite hating yaoi. Gil does not want. 8|
Ok, that's all folks! I actually drew today, so I'm hoping I'd be able to get some shit done this week~~ Good night!
Meh. My sketches keep getting stolen from this blog, coloured and posted
on deviantART without my permission, without crediting me or my blog
and watermarked by the thief. What should I dooo~? Should I stop posting sketches?
I've had some debates on devart because of my render stamp lately and realized that in this modern online culture, original creators and authors are simply NOT IMPORTANT. Most people don't give a damn where a certain picture / video / story / music comes from or who created it. Even on websites where you are supposed to post your own creations. The original policies seem to have been losing their purpose since everybody ignores them anyway. (Honestly, how many of you read that long boring text you have to accept when you register to a website?) So let's face it: No matter what you draw or how good your works are, most people who see your works online will never ever bother to check out your profile or personal website. They often don't even check out your other works. I've always liked to know where something I liked was from or who made it. Because when I find one cool thing, I will probably find even more cool things if I know the source. And because I admire people who do these cool things and want to know more about them. But maybe it's just me.
Anywho, drawings:
Random OC doodle. It was so refreshing to draw something in my own style for once, lol.
People keep bugging me to draw Oz/Alice. But I'm mainly a Vincent/everyone and Lacie/everyone shipper apparently. XD I think this drawing sucks. This is what happens when I try to draw something slightly dynamic-ish without references... -___-
Oh Jun, why do you make me draw things like this? This is pretty much a bad copy of one of Jun Mochizuki's sketches from the "Mine of mine" guidebook which I finally managed to obtain in raw scan format a few days ago. Vincent/Echo.
Chapter 72 inspired sketch. I wanted to draw this scene SO BADLY. It's all kinds of adorable and sad at the same time. I have to admit I'm not sure if I've ever loved the little interactions and body language of the characters in any other manga so far. The children of misfortune all seem to be quite the personal space invaders, haha. Also, I like drawing Lacie.
A few days ago I was raiding the internets for more Pandora Hearts scans because I couldn't believe Mochizuki didn't draw a crossdressing Vincent. And then I found it in the extras of the "Mine of mine" guidebook (Volume 8.5). HELL YEAAAH~ I wanted to draw him as a girl in a similar outfit. XD
I also have a sketch of Cheshire I posted on my Tumblr, but I don't feel like posting it here too, cuz I don't like it. :B Here are a few photos instead:
Our cactus some time ago~ This was the first time I've ever seen two flowers growing out of the same sprout. O___o They are twins!!
Because I'm not too fond of chocolate, I got this tiny bunny figure for Easter this time. XD I totally named it Oz. jk And I also got this 3 cm tall plushie teddy bear last week. I put it on my MP4 player because my phone doesn't have a hole for it... DO YOU KNOW HOW OLD I AM?! XD;;; Oh well, I still think things like these are cute.
Hmm... I'm not sure I'd enjoy Pandora Hearts so much if it was all cuteness and fluff and funny things. I need the drama, blood and pain to really like a story. Pandora Hearts is so great because it has the cuteness but doesn't get too corny and also has a healthy amount of darkness. Compared to my other big manga obsession, Fullmetal Alchemist, PH is a lot less predictable and also darker, I think. I never spent as much time analyzing FMA as I do analyzing PH.
Random thoughts about Pandora Hearts (mostly Vincent) I wrote down but never posted anywhere
I just reread a few notes I made a long time ago while reading Pandora Hearts. Some of them were just about analyzing characters and their relationships, but there were many things I had predicted but kinda forgot about them. O___o Click "Read more" to view my ramblings. Warning: Mild spoilers!!
If anyone is reading this, then hi! 8D I've been trying to draw but I haven't managed to produce too many decent things lately. A few scribbles I did:
I decided to practice drawing hands a bit. My left hand was the model.
Lolz, this is a really bad doodle I did of Zwei one night. It doesn't even resemble Zwei because I was too lazy to use a ref. I managed to make her look crazy enough, though. XD;
I logged in to Tumblr on March 29 I and the first frigging thing I saw on my dash was THIS. With Caucus Race 2, one of my secret fangirly dreams of Gil hugging Vincent came true and I just had to quickly scribble something to commemorate this beautiful event. 8;D It's a really fast sketch, but I kinda like it. I might clean it up a bit and post on Tumblr later.
Vinceeent~ This was inspired by a Tiger&Bunny fanart of Lunatic/Yuri from Pixiv. I kept thinking this pose was hot and hard to draw because of the perspective of the arms and I wanted to draw a male character in a similar pose, but didn't know which character. Then I realized Vincent had long hair and he actually has it tied back recently...
LMAO. Jack as Jack and Lacie as Rose from the famous movie, Titanic. I was working on this today. I had this idea some time ago and even did a really quick doodle in the middle of March, but only started seriously working on it today. I can't believe I've never seen this parody/crossover done before. XD; April 10 is gonna be the 100 year anniversary of the day when the Titanic embarked on its first and last journey and April 14-15 is when the tragedy happened. Great occasion for a fanart like this... ?
There are many things I messed up on this pic, but I'm going to finish it anyway.
I started putting my username on some pics, because sometimes people steal things even from this blog and then edit them without permission and then I "meet" them again in someone else's DA gallery. -___- Okay. I wanted to rant about some things, but it's getting pretty late and I don't wanna spend an hour typing shit now, so maybe I'll do it some other time~~
So today I finally ate some of the Milka chocolate rabbit I got for Easter from my aunt last year. Its "best before" date was August 31, 2011. But it still tastes good even if it spent almost a whole year sitting on my table untouched, ahaha... After not eating anything at all for a day, I felt like eating some chocolate.
Oh yeah, 2 days ago, at about 6:30 pm, I felt really sick. Jesus Christ, I felt terrible. I suddenly had a very intense pain in my stomach, I felt dizzy and I was shivering. I tried to lie down, but after a short while, I had to run to the toilet and ended up throwing up twice. I have no clue wtf was wrong with me, I didn't even eat anything I don't usually eat and I never eat too much. I thought I might end up becoming ill because I usually puke only while/before being ill, but fortunately, I feel alright now.
Also, sometimes I wonder why am I even doing all this? Why do I draw? Who do I dive into the fandom every day? I think I'm the worst kind of female otaku. That creepy "forever alone" kind. Borderline hikikomori. SO FRIGGING PATHETIC UGGGHHH. I want some kind of... real motivation and goals! I want challenge. The thrill of overcoming trials and... SUCCESS. Being somewhat popular with my fanarts is not really success, it's children's play. I should think of life as a videogame. Yeah. Try to play, become better and better at it and achieve things. I've always been good at games. If I think of life as a game, it should be easier to face my fears and problems too. XD; I'm not making sense, am I? Haha.
Anyway, here are a few things I've been working on:
Just slapped some base colours on this recently, cuz people seemed to really like this sketch of mine. I also redid the lines attempting to fix some anatomy errors and it's still sketchy... I also posted this on my Tumblr.
Another Vince/Gil pic. This is a really quick sketch I did in February. The whole pic is bigger, but I can't get Vincent's pose right. :B
Steps of my semi-realistic Jack portrait. This one sucks, lol. I like the Glen and Vincent ones much better. Why are you so draw, you bastard?! FFFUUUUU. I think I spend literally hours on just trying to get his face right. And it still looks like shit. If you flip the pic upside down, he looks awesome, though. 8D;;; I hate his face so much I even considered redoing the whole thing from scratch, but then I realized I probably couldn't make it better. *le sigh* And why do I even bother to do a base sketch... ? XD; These always look TERRIBLE when I do a quick base sketch for them. But I like lineless painting because I don't have to stick to a lineart. I'm not bound by black lines, I can just spread colours and shape them how it seems good to me.
And I drew this today in the morning. It's Lotti as her chain, Leon. XD I think she'd be quite similar to Cheshire in a way. Actually, I kinda like how this sketch turned out. I wanted to do quick lines + colours too in one sitting, but then my aunt wanted me to look up something online, so I had to stop working on it. This somehow always happens when I feel like drawing something, haha. 8D;
I've been working on my 150k kiriban pic too, but I don't wanna post another wip of that, cuz I just noticed another error on it, waaa...
Okay, that's it for now. Listen to some Two Steps from Hell music:
