First and last post of 2018

Where the heck did 2018 go?

Hmm, so last few hours of the year, you say?

Actually, not much happened to me in 2018. Still, it was a pretty great year for me. I feel like I achieved somewhat of a financial stability and I got more confident and stronger thanks to my job. I did have some depressive episodes, there were times when I was feeling down and I still have no social life, but 2018 was a good year in overall.

As for drawing, I really don't know. I am now certain that commissions were the only things that kept me going, as soon as I saw no interest and closed them, I completely stopped drawing. As I grow older, it just makes me feel ashamed. I still draw like a teenager and I'm over 30 already. I don't think I should keep forcing it since I'll never be half as good as I'd wanted to be. I've been on deviantART practicing and doing art as a hobby since freaking 2006. I saw improvement memes and they make me cry. :I

I'm not saying I shall never draw again because I'm a fickle person and will do it anyway if I feel like drawing again. In fact, I may start posting some older art on this blog or DA that fell victim to tumblr's "NO NSFW" rule.

Idk what to do with this blog. I may start using it again in 2019. Let's see.

Anyway, since my last post was a sims post in 2017, I'll post some sims again on the last day of this year. :B

One of my fav sims in The Sims 2 recently died so
RIP Claudia 01.11.2015-12.29.2018
(She lived for 77 sim days but almost 4 years in real time because I've been playing the game on and off with long breaks and I have shitloads of sims/families. Haha.)

~~HAPPY NEW YEAR~~

Sometimes I just want to lie down and die

Writing this very personal post here because nobody reads this blog but I need to vent somewhere.

I should have seen this coming

I wanted to finish a drawing today. I was working on it in the morning, then I took a break. Then, Mom was like "Let's go to the cemetery"!
FFFUUUUU. Why does this always happen? ALWAYS when I actually feel like drawing. WHYYY...? TT___TT

Rants about Pandora Hearts and Vincent

So...

 LET'S TALK ABOUT PANDORA HEARTS!!

8D

Hmm... I'm not sure I'd enjoy Pandora Hearts so much if it was all cuteness and fluff and funny things. I need the drama, blood and pain to really like a story. Pandora Hearts is so great because it has the cuteness but doesn't get too corny and also has a healthy amount of darkness. Compared to my other big manga obsession, Fullmetal Alchemist, PH is a lot less predictable and also darker, I think. I never spent as much time analyzing FMA as I do analyzing PH.

Random thoughts about Pandora Hearts (mostly Vincent) I wrote down but never posted anywhere

I just reread a few notes I made a long time ago while reading Pandora Hearts. Some of them were just about analyzing characters and their relationships, but there were many things I had predicted but kinda forgot about them. O___o Click "Read more" to view my ramblings. Warning: Mild spoilers!!