Today's date is 12/12/12. How cool. 8D We won't have another date like this in our lifetime.
Anywho, I didn't forget about this blog. I just don't have anything to post. Seriously. I have a few new sketches, but all of them are shit. Here are some screenshots I've shown to friends:
This is a wip shot of the pic I did for the calendar project, I spent a lot of time on it and I think this is one of my best linearts so far. I tried to keep it relatively clean.
And this is a sketch I abandoned. It's kind of cute, though. Maybe I'll continue working on it one day.
I wanted to reply to some comments on DA, but I had a pretty rough day and I'm so tired now I don't feel like doing anything else... I'll save it for next morning. Good night~~
Lalala, still art block. And I managed to cut my right thumb today with my COMPUTER! XD;;; Seriously, a part of the "A" in the ASUS logo got stuck in my finger as I was cleaning the damn thing! Who thought it would come off like that?! I managed to pull it out of my finger, but it was bleeding like hell. It's a small cut but it's pretty deep. I hope it heals a bit by Monday.
Anyway, I haven't been drawing much. Tomorrow is Break's birthday, but I missed Vincent's birthday too, so I'm not gonna draw anything. I'd decided from the beginning that I wouldn't draw for these "character birthdays", but I always feel a little guilty for not doing anything while "Happy Birthday" drawings keep popping up on pixiv. ^^;
This is pretty much the only thing I've been working on recently. This will be (?) a commission for HockeyWitch. I still dislike his face, but I think I might leave it like that now. I've been messing around with it for 2 months...
It looks like this at the moment. My task was to draw Gil like he is on this picture but in a semi-realistic style. I'm not satisfied with the result, but I'm too lazy to try redoing it all. I think I realized it just now that the mouth looks awkward, haha...
I've been working for 3 months. However, this job is only for a certain period of time and it will end next year. To be honest, I'm both scared and happy about it. I'm scared of not being able to find another job, but I'm happy that I won't have to work here forever. I do like the people there and it's an okay job, but I want something more. Something where I could use my skills and solve problems instead of just being an "errand girl" and doing the most basic or least pleasant stuff nobody else is willing to do. I really don't want to complain, but the payment could be better too. (Well, it's a job for rookies so...) I like working there, but I think I'm capable of doing more.
And... and... I played Slender! In my opinion, the game is much more annoying than scary. I watched a few people play on YouTube, but their screen didn't seem as dark as mine most of the time. I can't really figure out where I'm going even with the flashlight switched on. I attempted to play a few times, but just gave up and quit after collecting 1-2 pages because I got bored of the endless walking and the trees. (Slenderman got me only once after walking for way too long.) The drumming in the background is also annoying as hell. My other problem besides the blinding darkness is the speed. Walking is frigging slow. Running should be better, but in this case, I can see even less. The scariest part of the game is the sudden flickering screen. That really made me go "Huh!?" a few times. But I think people overreact and overhype like always.
Okay, that's all for September, I guess. I don't know if there's anyone besides Axl16 who's following my ramblings here, but see you next time~
Yo! I didn't forget about this blog, I just don't have much to post lately. :(
Doodle of Lotti. I did this some time ago.
I like to do really quick doodles of Vincent whenever I feel like drawing something quickly. I don't like this one any longer, but it turned out okay for something drawn fast.
VincentxNoise. Yes. I ship Vincent with everyone. And I noticed I got a lot more confident at drawing hands, it's so much easier to draw them without references now.
Something super quick I drew today.
Dear Vincent! Please stop flooding my brain with random ideas just for a short while and let me get other stuff done. Thank you in advance. Your biggest fan,
Amarevia
PH 76 came out today. Probably the shortest chapter so far. But it's pretty emotional... Alyss, ALYSS! Yes, Alyss FINALLY APPEARED! INTERACTIONS BETWEEN THE SISTERS AAAH!! We finally get to learn how Alice became one with B-Rabbit and stuff. Nice~
I got my first salary in the beginning of August. To celebrate it, my auntie got me a mobile phone holder thingy as a present. It's purple and it has my name on it. Then my mom started bugging me because of my crappy old Samsung phone. Every time you open it, the screen goes black after 4-5 seconds, its camera doesn't work any longer either and the phone itself is pretty outdated nowadays. (I think it's a model from... 2006-2007? And it already wasn't of the best or latest technology when it came out.) So yeah, mom is crazy about touchscreen phones and decided she'd buy one for me. We finally went and bought one a week ago. It's not the most expensive superawesome model either, but it's light years better than my old Samsung. It's a Nokia. My first phone was a Nokia too, I was a bit angry at my mom when she "exchanged" it for a discount of the price of the new Samsung. I'm not into cell phones in general, but currently, I'm in love with my new Nokia phone! It can even play MP4 video files my MP4 player can't play. :B And it's so easy to put shit on it from my computer! My biggest problem with my old cell phones is that I can't connect them to my compy (I don't have special data cables for them) and for some reason, I can't send MMS with them either, so there's no way to save old photos and audio recordings I'd made with them unless I keep the phones too.
I guess it's pretty easy to tell it's my phone, ahaha~
Mom is planning a big renovation in our apartment. It's possible that I won't even be able to use my compy for a couple of days. However, I have internet on my phone now, so I might be able to go online and do a few things. (Not much, tho.)
I'm feeling pretty tired and crappy atm, so I guess I'd better go now... I'll continue working on commissions tomorrow~
I'm starting work next MONDAY!! I'm excited and worried at the same time. But that other girl who's gonna be my colleague is very kind and she's older and more experienced, so I hope she'll be able to help me. I wanna be friends with her. I'm very inexperienced and naive but I learn fast. No matter what, I'm gonna do my best! I won't earn a lot of money, but it's better than nothing. HECK, I'LL EARN MONEY!! Even if it isn't much, it will be my own money I earn with my own work! Yes! Finally! And I have a shiny new bank account! (I had no bank account in the past few years.) I think that as soon as I get my cards, the first thing I'll try to do is buying a premium membership on deviantART. Just to see how it works. And I'm gonna buy a new cellphone when I get my first payment. I dislike cellphones and rarely use them, but this modern world requires you to own one. They ask for your mobile number EVERYWHERE! D:
So I wrote that first paragraph yesterday. Today I got in a lethargic mood for no reason after coming home from the doctor. And I'd really need to draw something this weekend. OTL I actually have a drawing I should do for a group activity before the 1st of July. It's not that I haven't been drawing, just nothing turns out well. Here are some sketches I did in June:
I love it when Jack or Vincent does this "shhh" pose, lol~ Very fast sketch.
Ozu. This sucks. It was a bad idea to attempt drawing this pose.
Gil and Vincent. I drew this when I was feeling shitty.
No, this is not a rape scene, I just felt like drawing angry yelling people.
This idea has been sitting in my head since retrace 69 (January). I drew a basic sketch back then, but it was horrible, so I redid it recently inspired by this RP. This new sketch is much better, but still could use a lot of work and refining.
And I did this last Saturday when I finally felt like drawing again after a tiring week. I wish I'd have the patience to work on it some more, but I haven't touched it since then.
Okay, so I haven't been able to complete anything lately and I'm afraid work's gonna kill off all that little hint of inspiration that I have left. But I'll try. Maybe drawing would help me relax after work... Though to tell the truth, drawing is not relaxing for me at all because I tend to stress over everything. This pose is odd, this arm is too long, this facial expression is not right, etc. etc.
Oh well... I can't promise anything, but I'll try to draw something with Lotti for now~
Wow! I think it's the first time I actually managed to finish/colour everything from a previous post. Yay~
Anyway, I got so inspired by retrace 73, I finally decided to draw a bunch of sketches of Gil, Oswald and Jack... They are under the cut because of the spoiler content.
I wanted to finish a drawing today. I was working on it in the morning, then I took a break. Then, Mom was like "Let's go to the cemetery"!
FFFUUUUU. Why does this always happen? ALWAYS when I actually feel like drawing. WHYYY...? TT___TT
I've been suffering with drawing lately. I don't even know how I manage to waste all that time doing nothing productive... But I decided I will complete one drawing before the next PH chapter comes out! I still have a whole day left! (Or maybe two, but the spoilers tend to come earlier.)
So yeah, I started sketching this in the beginning of May, but I'd like to finish this tomorrow. The Children of Misfortune. I wanted to draw their adult versions and Break as his younger Kevin self because... BECAUSE. I dislike Lacie's hair here, the shape is odd and Vincent looks odd too, but maybe it will be better when I shade it. :B
This was inspired by a doodle by Mochizuki I saw in the art book. I've never been particularly interested in this BreakxSharon pairing. I don't even know why because it's pretty much my DREAM COUPLE. I mean... rich young lady and her loyal knight - isn't that perfect? XD But somehow I kept thinking of them as protective big brother and spoiled little sister not related by blood. However, I was eventually convinced thanks to some PH extras that Sharon totally has a crush on Break. And Break likes to tease everyone~
DJAKSJDANSDAHAEZFGEZ Whoops, I think I just turned bisketchual... Yes, I went there. I have no regrets, lalala~ This pic just spontaneously popped into my head today and I had to draw it right away. I wanted to ride that wonderful random wave of inspiration that doesn't come often. You know you're a rabid Vincent fangirl when you start shipping him with his brother despite hating yaoi. Gil does not want. 8|
Ok, that's all folks! I actually drew today, so I'm hoping I'd be able to get some shit done this week~~ Good night!
Meh. My sketches keep getting stolen from this blog, coloured and posted
on deviantART without my permission, without crediting me or my blog
and watermarked by the thief. What should I dooo~? Should I stop posting sketches?
I've had some debates on devart because of my render stamp lately and realized that in this modern online culture, original creators and authors are simply NOT IMPORTANT. Most people don't give a damn where a certain picture / video / story / music comes from or who created it. Even on websites where you are supposed to post your own creations. The original policies seem to have been losing their purpose since everybody ignores them anyway. (Honestly, how many of you read that long boring text you have to accept when you register to a website?) So let's face it: No matter what you draw or how good your works are, most people who see your works online will never ever bother to check out your profile or personal website. They often don't even check out your other works. I've always liked to know where something I liked was from or who made it. Because when I find one cool thing, I will probably find even more cool things if I know the source. And because I admire people who do these cool things and want to know more about them. But maybe it's just me.
Anywho, drawings:
Random OC doodle. It was so refreshing to draw something in my own style for once, lol.
People keep bugging me to draw Oz/Alice. But I'm mainly a Vincent/everyone and Lacie/everyone shipper apparently. XD I think this drawing sucks. This is what happens when I try to draw something slightly dynamic-ish without references... -___-
Oh Jun, why do you make me draw things like this? This is pretty much a bad copy of one of Jun Mochizuki's sketches from the "Mine of mine" guidebook which I finally managed to obtain in raw scan format a few days ago. Vincent/Echo.
Chapter 72 inspired sketch. I wanted to draw this scene SO BADLY. It's all kinds of adorable and sad at the same time. I have to admit I'm not sure if I've ever loved the little interactions and body language of the characters in any other manga so far. The children of misfortune all seem to be quite the personal space invaders, haha. Also, I like drawing Lacie.
A few days ago I was raiding the internets for more Pandora Hearts scans because I couldn't believe Mochizuki didn't draw a crossdressing Vincent. And then I found it in the extras of the "Mine of mine" guidebook (Volume 8.5). HELL YEAAAH~ I wanted to draw him as a girl in a similar outfit. XD
I also have a sketch of Cheshire I posted on my Tumblr, but I don't feel like posting it here too, cuz I don't like it. :B Here are a few photos instead:
Our cactus some time ago~ This was the first time I've ever seen two flowers growing out of the same sprout. O___o They are twins!!
Because I'm not too fond of chocolate, I got this tiny bunny figure for Easter this time. XD I totally named it Oz. jk And I also got this 3 cm tall plushie teddy bear last week. I put it on my MP4 player because my phone doesn't have a hole for it... DO YOU KNOW HOW OLD I AM?! XD;;; Oh well, I still think things like these are cute.
Hmm... I'm not sure I'd enjoy Pandora Hearts so much if it was all cuteness and fluff and funny things. I need the drama, blood and pain to really like a story. Pandora Hearts is so great because it has the cuteness but doesn't get too corny and also has a healthy amount of darkness. Compared to my other big manga obsession, Fullmetal Alchemist, PH is a lot less predictable and also darker, I think. I never spent as much time analyzing FMA as I do analyzing PH.
Random thoughts about Pandora Hearts (mostly Vincent) I wrote down but never posted anywhere
I just reread a few notes I made a long time ago while reading Pandora Hearts. Some of them were just about analyzing characters and their relationships, but there were many things I had predicted but kinda forgot about them. O___o Click "Read more" to view my ramblings. Warning: Mild spoilers!!
If anyone is reading this, then hi! 8D I've been trying to draw but I haven't managed to produce too many decent things lately. A few scribbles I did:
I decided to practice drawing hands a bit. My left hand was the model.
Lolz, this is a really bad doodle I did of Zwei one night. It doesn't even resemble Zwei because I was too lazy to use a ref. I managed to make her look crazy enough, though. XD;
I logged in to Tumblr on March 29 I and the first frigging thing I saw on my dash was THIS. With Caucus Race 2, one of my secret fangirly dreams of Gil hugging Vincent came true and I just had to quickly scribble something to commemorate this beautiful event. 8;D It's a really fast sketch, but I kinda like it. I might clean it up a bit and post on Tumblr later.
Vinceeent~ This was inspired by a Tiger&Bunny fanart of Lunatic/Yuri from Pixiv. I kept thinking this pose was hot and hard to draw because of the perspective of the arms and I wanted to draw a male character in a similar pose, but didn't know which character. Then I realized Vincent had long hair and he actually has it tied back recently...
LMAO. Jack as Jack and Lacie as Rose from the famous movie, Titanic. I was working on this today. I had this idea some time ago and even did a really quick doodle in the middle of March, but only started seriously working on it today. I can't believe I've never seen this parody/crossover done before. XD; April 10 is gonna be the 100 year anniversary of the day when the Titanic embarked on its first and last journey and April 14-15 is when the tragedy happened. Great occasion for a fanart like this... ?
There are many things I messed up on this pic, but I'm going to finish it anyway.
I started putting my username on some pics, because sometimes people steal things even from this blog and then edit them without permission and then I "meet" them again in someone else's DA gallery. -___- Okay. I wanted to rant about some things, but it's getting pretty late and I don't wanna spend an hour typing shit now, so maybe I'll do it some other time~~
So today I finally ate some of the Milka chocolate rabbit I got for Easter from my aunt last year. Its "best before" date was August 31, 2011. But it still tastes good even if it spent almost a whole year sitting on my table untouched, ahaha... After not eating anything at all for a day, I felt like eating some chocolate.
Oh yeah, 2 days ago, at about 6:30 pm, I felt really sick. Jesus Christ, I felt terrible. I suddenly had a very intense pain in my stomach, I felt dizzy and I was shivering. I tried to lie down, but after a short while, I had to run to the toilet and ended up throwing up twice. I have no clue wtf was wrong with me, I didn't even eat anything I don't usually eat and I never eat too much. I thought I might end up becoming ill because I usually puke only while/before being ill, but fortunately, I feel alright now.
Also, sometimes I wonder why am I even doing all this? Why do I draw? Who do I dive into the fandom every day? I think I'm the worst kind of female otaku. That creepy "forever alone" kind. Borderline hikikomori. SO FRIGGING PATHETIC UGGGHHH. I want some kind of... real motivation and goals! I want challenge. The thrill of overcoming trials and... SUCCESS. Being somewhat popular with my fanarts is not really success, it's children's play. I should think of life as a videogame. Yeah. Try to play, become better and better at it and achieve things. I've always been good at games. If I think of life as a game, it should be easier to face my fears and problems too. XD; I'm not making sense, am I? Haha.
Anyway, here are a few things I've been working on:
Just slapped some base colours on this recently, cuz people seemed to really like this sketch of mine. I also redid the lines attempting to fix some anatomy errors and it's still sketchy... I also posted this on my Tumblr.
Another Vince/Gil pic. This is a really quick sketch I did in February. The whole pic is bigger, but I can't get Vincent's pose right. :B
Steps of my semi-realistic Jack portrait. This one sucks, lol. I like the Glen and Vincent ones much better. Why are you so draw, you bastard?! FFFUUUUU. I think I spend literally hours on just trying to get his face right. And it still looks like shit. If you flip the pic upside down, he looks awesome, though. 8D;;; I hate his face so much I even considered redoing the whole thing from scratch, but then I realized I probably couldn't make it better. *le sigh* And why do I even bother to do a base sketch... ? XD; These always look TERRIBLE when I do a quick base sketch for them. But I like lineless painting because I don't have to stick to a lineart. I'm not bound by black lines, I can just spread colours and shape them how it seems good to me.
And I drew this today in the morning. It's Lotti as her chain, Leon. XD I think she'd be quite similar to Cheshire in a way. Actually, I kinda like how this sketch turned out. I wanted to do quick lines + colours too in one sitting, but then my aunt wanted me to look up something online, so I had to stop working on it. This somehow always happens when I feel like drawing something, haha. 8D;
I've been working on my 150k kiriban pic too, but I don't wanna post another wip of that, cuz I just noticed another error on it, waaa...
Okay, that's it for now. Listen to some Two Steps from Hell music:
Yeah. I'm so creative with blog entry titles. Also, stupid weather. Now it's all sunny and spring-like again and all the snow that kept falling non-stop yesterday melted last night when the snow turned into rain.
First of all, Kasia, if you are reading this (I know you're stalking my blog lol), I wanna let you know that our Lotti/Gil drawing inspired some cool smutty roleplays on Tumblr. 8)))
Drawings.
Unfinished version of this. I think it looks SO MUCH BETTER with the textures.
Looong overdue request of someone's characters. This is the 4th version and I'm finally uploading a wip, cuz I think I'll go with this version. I hate how the guy looks here, though. OTL
Very fast sketch of my cute little girl character, Amarevia. This name almost became my own second name through the years I spent using it doing stuff online, but it originally belonged to this character. I have to admit, now I think she's a little bit like Alice from PH, lol.
Sketch versus lineart. The pic really does change a lot in the process, doesn't it? 8D
Aaand here's something I started sketching today. Can you guess who this is? 8)
My rants about Pandora Hearts Retrace 70.
Click "Read more" to read them!
I'm such a kid. Yesterday, it snowed all day and it made me so happy. XDD The snowing continued until about noon today. I was watching it for a while early in the morning from my window and the snow was sparkling in the light of the street lamps, it was so pretty! I was about to give up on seeing more snow than just a few drops this winter, but now we finally got some cold (VERY cold) and a decent amount of snow.
Drawings. KICK MEEE!! PLEASE?! I should draw more. I have a sketch which has the potential to be one of my best drawings if I finish it. I started doing the lineart yesterday and couldn't draw one character's face decently, kept erasing and redrawing, then eventually gave up. OTL (For now.) I gave up on creating original things a while ago almost completely, but I'm not good enough even as a fanartist. I'm stalking a couple of artists on Tumblr and I'm always like "how can they draw so much? why is even their sketchy stuff so good? why can't I draw half as well as this person when I'm 5 years older and I have been doing digital art for 6 years and she's just a hobbyist like me?" Anyway, I've been trying to draw, but everything I do sucks.
First of all, while I was working on my Glen portrait, I noticed that the same file looked slightly different in Sai and Photoshop. The only thing I don't like in Sai is that the shades don't seem to blend as nicely as they do in PS. Different shades have this "edge" in Sai that I can't delete no matter what tool I use. When I open the same file in PS, it looks smoother.
Quick sketch of Leo. I stopped drawing/colouring this, cuz I didn't like how it was turning out. :\
Break. This one was inspired by a cosplay photo. I can't draw his hair.
This is COMPLETE UTTER SHIT. This is what happens when you try to draw something cool and dynamic and then you realize during the process that you cannot draw dynamic things to save your life and the result turns out looking like crap and 200% static lol. I'm just posting this to show you how bad my really quick sketches are. -___-;
Okay, here's a sample from the Pandora Hearts fanart calendar. We are seriously making a calendar (actually two calendars). In fact, I'm already done with the first 12 months. It's more difficult to do than it seems, but it's turning out better than I expected at first. I'm not sure when it will be done, because we still don't have a 2nd June pic, but I hope we can finish it before March... >___<;;;
I want to draw moaaar, I'll go now...
Oh, and some people take and edit even the sketches I post here on this blog without permission. Is it so hard to contact me and ask for my permission first? D: I may have to start watermarking even my doodles, lol.
I've been in a creative mode lately, which is good, I guess. Okay, let's post some things here~
These are two work in progress pics of this deviation. It took me a week to finish the sketch, get over my laziness and start doing the lineart, but then all the linearting, colouring and background were done in only 3 days, which is a really short time for me, cuz I usually sit on a drawing for weeks... XD;
I enjoy torturing characters I like. >D I put this up on my Tumblr, but I wanted to post it here too~
This a 3-colours-only quickie thing of Demios done in Sai. It's unfinished and I have no clue what Demios' "body" looks like, because we never see it clearly in its full glory in the manga, so this is just my guess. Ok, Pandora Hearts really made me go crazy. Srsly, since when am I obsessing over things that resemble of a skeleton of a genetically modified mutant goat... ??
I also did a colouring of Jack from chapter 69, but I don't really like how it came out. Anyway, I posted it on Tumblr and it got more likes and reblogs than anything else I posted myself so far, so I guess maybe it's not that horrible after all. XD; The reason I did this is because I'm still considering making a fan video of Pandora Hearts and it would be good only if I could edit/colour shitloads of panels for it. I'd edit out the speech bubbles and backgrounds and colour the characters. So it would be insanely time-consuming. My other problem with it is that I'd like to focus on Jack and the tragedy of Sablier - in other words the newest arc and we still don't have enough chapters of that. But of course I could start editing and colouring the older parts I'd like to use nonetheless~~
Oh, and I almost forgot adding this. I drew this yesterday. I had this sudden urge to do another semi-realistic portrait of a PH character and I chose Glen/Oswald. (I think I'll keep calling him Glen for the sake of simplicity.) About 80-90 minutes of work with Photoshop CS2 so far. I used some references to get the proportions right, but he wasn't based on anyone in particular. So far, it looks much better than my first realistic Vincent wip. XD;;;
Alright, that's all for now. I wanna work a bit more on that realistic Glen today. 8D
... NOOO I just heard those bitches killed off Megaupload and Megavideo!! *wriggles in agony* DDDX You have no idea how much anime and other shit I used to watch on Megavideo, I even watched the entire Avatar series there. And of course I used to download stuff from Megaupload too. Hell, even my shimeji was uploaded there and now people can't download the zip version from my DA any longer. Let's pray for they won't shut down deviantART and other sites likes that...
And I should have posted this last time, but here's this little statistics about the
Frequency of Pandora Hearts characters appearing in my sketchblog posts in 2011:
1) Vincent - 17 posts 2) Gil - 12 posts 3) Alice - 6 posts Jack - 6 posts 4) Oz - 5 posts Break - 5 posts Glen - 5 posts Leo - 5 posts Ada - 5 posts 5) Lotti - 4 posts 6) Elliot - 3 posts 7) Echo - 2 posts 8) Sharon - 1 post
I thought it was interesting, lol. *runs off to draw*
